So another year begins and the future looks bright. This year I'm making several commitments and they will be completed before this year ends. My first is to spend as much quality time with my twin boys and my husband as humanly possible. My second commitment is to lose between 20 - 30 kg. I'm not exactly sure how much as it has been some time since I have weighted myself but I want to get down to 58kg. My third commitment is to enjoy my time with my friends and family. My fouth commitment is to be the best teacher I can be without doing so much work that I don't have time for my other commitments. There are many other things I would dearly like to commit to but I want to give my four commitments 100% and not relax on my goals.
Spending time with my twin boys and my husband in the past year has been very difficult. My husband has been working in another state for the majority of this year and we have had limited time together. This made things very difficult and at some time extremely frustrating for both of us. In April, our twins Hunter and Logan were born. My husband was there for the birth and we enjoyed spending time with our brand new babies but all too soon my husband had to go back to work. We knew this was going to happen when he decided to take the job but I didn't know how hard it was going to be. One of my little boys kept getting really sick and had a tiny little nose that prevented him from breathing properly. Most nights I was getting one or two hours sleep maximum, but I made it through and I look at my boys on this new day and year and see how blessed I really am. Currently my husband is home and is working he with great prospects of getting a job back home with us.
My second commitment is something I have struggled with all of my life. I have always been very self conscience of my appearance. Even when I was a tiny 11 year old girl and only weighted 28kg I would get thrown around by larger boys in the grade above me. I literally was thrown backwards and forwards between two of the largest boys. I hated the fact that I was so vulnerable. At the same time people would constantly make comments about my lack of chest and the fact that I was all skin and bones and was not toned at all. I have slowly added more and more weight protecting myself and eating myself through many difficult situations. I always made excuses and would have moments of time where I would work extremely hard for a few weeks but then fall back into old routines. I look at myself now and I can't believe that I got here. I look at pictures of myself in my early twenties when I thought I was horribly fat and I was fabulous. It's time to get my fabulous, fit self back with no excuses. This year I have joined Michelle Bridges twelve week transformation and I believe this will give me the kick to make my goals a reality.
Spending time with my family and friends is always something I have done. Although I must admit I have always spent a lot of time with my family but not always found time for my friends. I have had a lot of my 'friends' screw me over so many times that I don't always put as much in a friendship as I probably should as I don't want to be hurt. I hate the feeling of rejection or betrayal of a friend that sometimes I hold off on friendships. This year I will be fully committed to my friends without sounding stalker like.
I have been a teacher for ten years in schools and I taught music privately for 6 years before that. I love teaching and I love seeing the growth in my students over the year. It is something that is really important to me but I need to remember there are three other commitments above this that I need to put first.
HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone and I hope all of all goals and commitments for the year are able to be met.
