Today I decided to purchase the Michelle Bridge's cookbook from Big W as the one I ordered online still isn't here and I wanted to get a jump start on my diet. I pretty much organised all my meals for the week as well as the rest of my family. I wrote a massive list of food I needed for the various meals and sent my husband out to get it. I'm pretty happy with my choices and can't wait to try them. Tonight I had a spinach and ricotta bake with some veggies and chicken.

Today is supposed to be rest day but I didn't exercise on Friday but I kept convincing myself that I should rest. Yeah I was sore and tired and very very very hot but after dinner I decided to go for another run/walk. It wasn't the best running I've done and I walked a lot of where I normally run but still I'm happy I got out there. I've got to stop getting angry at myself because I'm unfit and have to work up to a decent pace.

Something I've always struggled with is stepping outside my comfort zone. When I'm comfortable, I have the confidence to do anything that I need to do but when I feel slightly uncomfortable I close up and put up my shell. I've always struggled in big groups of people. Mainly because I don't like not knowing what people are thinking of me. I wish I could stop caring but I care what everyone thinks. I get upset by the smallest things. Being part of the 12WBT is good because I can put myself out there through words without putting my whole self there to be criticised. The only problem is that many members of the 12WBT are starting to organise get togethers and exercise groups. I really want to go but first I get nervous meeting new people and second I'm pretty unfit and don't want to look stupid. Hopefully I'll keep training with my husband and when I'm confident in my fitness I will join.